Saturday, July 9, 2011
We learn a lot by how we were as children. If you're trying to find your authentic self--delve into the child before that child was told "how" to do things and what was "right."
When you played with friends, did you let them direct what you'd do and went along with it or did you make up the games? Did you do the creative things like turn a sheet into a gown or make a fort with blankets? Were you the one who wanted to watch others do things or did you just want to do things and didn't care if the others caught up?
Were you physical? Wanting to ride bikes, skateboard, shoot baskets, swim.
Were you creative? Wanting to watch movies, read books, fantasize with dolls to play out dream worlds.
Were you industrious? Wanting to build a tree fort, redecorate your room, build a ramp for jumping your bike.
Were you mentally driven? Wanting to learn all about medieval lifestyle, reading, telescopes, and catching bugs.
Were you experience-oriented? Wanting to go places, loving vacations, going to outdoor concerts, museums.
When I was younger, I wanted to lead the play time. I was creative and had plots and ideas for what to do. I wanted to build things, do things, go places, push myself physically, exploring creepy places, having seances, competing in basketball, making up dance routines on skates, mapping the woods. I am pretty much the sum of being a leader and a tomboy, a person who asked questions and wanted to make things happen instead of just dreaming all the time. I'm about as much my genuine self now as I can be, but it wasn't always that way. In my marriage, much of those traits went underground. I was not authentic and felt dissociated from my self.
I've found that since being my real self and using those natural skills I always had since childhood, the world has offered good karma. It's strange how that works. Don't fight your personality's traits, embrace them and use them to their best advantage and you will find success is yours. It's not as much about skills and knowledge, talent and blessings; it's about being real. Then, you create your own groove.
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