Here I Am For All To See!



JUST KIDDING! Yeah, that was in in Miss Arizona USA pageant. I won't tell you the year but I will give you a hint--my hair should have been much more teased and I should have worn shoulder pads... I've been getting a steady stream of emails asking me to show myself fully. I like making ya'all kind of wonder. Does she have a defect? My only defect is a wicked sense of the macabre. I like being cloaked partially in and out of shots. You get parts but not the sum of me. I do promise that on my birthday in mid September, you will see all of me NOWADAYS. I also will begin to do some videos where I can talk to you face-to-face and drive you insane with my weird antics. What are friends for but to take on adventures and road trips and make you survive it alongside me?

The pageant was a real mess. I did make first runnerup for Miss Photogenic--the black and white shot. I did not place because the night before the actual pageant, I got the Norwalk virus with about 10 other girls. All of us had to leave the hotel or sicken everyone. It was a total bummer. A girl dreams her whole life of Miss USA pageant. I learned a lot about human nature in the process, like how nasty women can truly be in the biz. I knew it from modeling and other pageants, but this one was especially so. I remember one of my fake nails came off and the girls in my room shrugged and said, "we don't have glue, so sorry." So, I went through their bags at night and glued my nail back on.

The pageant director had me gain a bit of weight to "soften" my modeling body because bony wasn't in. I actually like the curves I achieved. I hated the stupid blonde stripes and brown hair they made me have, but you do what you can to obtain that dream (even if their stylists are stupid asses). I'm glad I woke up from the dream. The next year, I didn't enter it. I couldn't stomach the whole process. But, I did many other pageants and some pretty weird modeling gigs from runway to dancing in ski clothes to being a mannequin in a window and swimwear.

So, as you can see in the photos--I am not scarred or hiding some deformity--other than I was one stupid young woman in finding my value in a swimsuit. If they had let me open my mouth and talk to them (other than the ridiculous interview questions), I might have impressed them even more. Thank heavens for the maturation process.

Now, don't say I haven't shown you my face!

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  1. SHOW YOUR FACE !
    SHOW YOUR FACE !
    SHOW YOUR FACE !

    Just playing !
    :-)

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  2. Yeah, well, same could be said for you, you cute little devil!

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  3. autumn, that little face picture...you look like dorothy!!

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  4. Seriously,
    In the past I have shown my face on the social networks.
    Lesson learned, I was around photoshop people, and I didn't need sites pretending to be me when certain people got upset with me.


    I don't like to get all personal with my life on the web.
    Hell...I don't even like it on emails.
    Everything can be twisted.

    Again, lesson learned, so really, I get it.
    :-)

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  6. LOL, you are a tease! I did see a huge difference in weight loss from our Globe trip in May to the workshop we just attended in July. Keep up the good work...

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  7. Hey Max;
    I realized how you really can't hide on the Internet. I am able to find wayyyyy too much information about me online. Terrifying. Still, since I'm running around meeting bloggers, eventually I will be exposed so I will control it.

    Libby;
    Never heard that one, how sweet. I used to hear Valerie Bertinelli or Victoria Principal a lot.

    Julie;
    Yeah, I'm determined to regain something closer to my modeling body but perhaps not so bony. I used to get bruises on my elbows and hips from sleeping! Yeah, that's not good. Never died once in my life until now. I love genetics, hate the aging process. hee hee

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  8. shoulder pads in a swimsuit?

    you ARE old :P lol

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  9. All I can say, is your Husband is one lucky devil! I hope he realizes what he has. You look great!

    Les

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  10. Thanks Les;
    No, he has no idea how lucky. That's what we're in the process of dealing with now, many many many years of neglect and indifference. I suppose it's because we are vastly different people who just are like oil and water. The stoic german engineer type who is logic-driven and the bubbly goofy high energy lady who is highly affectionate. If it was a movie, I might cast Harrison Ford and Julia Roberts as the couple... I appreciate the support that all of you show me. I have to say, I haven't had that for such a very long time that it chokes me up. You've all helped me own my true self and be who I am. When my husband frowns at my easy laughter and hugginess and occasional curse word, ya'all find it endearing. It's really helped me more than I can ever repay. Just another example of how the blog world heals and another point for the book "Hug-A-Blogger."

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  11. I just listened to your video at "hug a blogger" awesome project btw--I feel like i know you already. Isn't that odd? I guess because we've shared emails back and forth.

    I think its kinda cool you being mysterious and all. Showing us just a little to keep us interested.

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  12. Paula;
    I feel the same way about you. What I love about blogging is that, to maintain this over time, you must be who you are. I am exactly like I come across on the blog. Of course, once I start doing videos face-to-face, ya'all will come to know that I am very much a spaz, high energy, enthusiastic and, well, goofy. When I'm doing something--I think it's the coolest thing to do! Wherever I am, it's the best place to be! When I'm with someone--they are the most awesome person to be with! Julie and I are going to get together to plan out the road trip with a map pinned to the wall. No doubt, I will have to videotape the insanity that ensues. This project will fly simply because Julie and I together--sanity and insanity, sensitivity and humor. As I do more vid's, ya'all will come to know me quite well. In fact, expect another vid soon here and on the HAB blog.

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  13. You definitely are not scarred. Quite the opposite!

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  14. CB;
    Well, you still don't know...the back side might be scarred... oh wait, no, I put my butt shaking on a video. Guess you know it's not seriously messed up--except it has a tendency to wiggle fast...

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  15. 1980's...yep...definitely! LOL Poofy hair. Been there, done that! Very cute pictures! I had a modeling dream once myself. Even had a couple well known New York agencies really like me but alas.....I was not blessed with height! I'm only 5'5" and back then, you had to be a minimum of 5'8"...They both said, "Honey, if you were only taller."...now it doesn't matter unless you are a runway model. Oh well, such as life! LOL

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  16. Tara;
    I get ya. I'm 5'8" and was the tail end of height for modeling but cause I have a long body--the swimsuit makers liked me. I'd rather have the height in my legs, but hey--it made carrying a baby easier (I'm an optimist). :-)

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